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And again…

Not again. Oh, please not again. The ripping in this heart can’t take another blow. I am weary of this uncertainty. I am weary of this lack of stability. 

Is this a punishment for how we have treated others?  Have we brought this on ourselves by not being completely obedient?  Unity doesn’t exist in division, right?  Are we so divided that unity can’t exist?  A house divided cannot stand so on what does a divided house rely on for a sturdy foundation?  Do we each have our own thing going on and no one is really sure what the other one is doing so how can we be unified?

It is a confusing picture I paint. I was never any good at being creative so every now and then I colored inside the lines and forgot there may be beauty outside of those lines that needs a splash of color. So I paint this grim picture of another loss. The pain is really too much to bear. 
I am not holding out for a hero this time though. I have one that finished it long ago. So the pain will rip and tear but scars will form and leave Ebenezers behind so I won’t soon forget the gripping pain that threatens to choke the life out of me.  Beauty from ashes will come in strength for standing firm through the power of God, not man. And just as Jesus rose, He will cause His church to rise. Arise, church. 
Be the church all you who believe. Don’t believe in man but in the very God Who created you. Man will disappoint but never will God. Man will leave and forsake but never will God. Man may reject but God accepts this sinner just as I am. 
Standing firm!