I have been struggling with some big questions lately. They are so much bigger than anything I can answer. They stem from some behaviors and words. And I am left completely bewildered and confused.
First, I know Satan is having a big time with this. He is loving the confusion he has planted in me. Anyone who knows me, knows how crazy my hair can be. Curly, messy, frizzy. Lately, I feel like my brain has taken the form of my hair. And it is a tangled mess.
I won’t go into details but suffice it to say that my world has been turned upside down. What I have known for so long has shifted from comfort to discomfort. A place I found sanctuary has been cut off from me. And now I am left reeling. I am left stricken with a pain I can’t even describe.
So, I open Proverbs. I want to bury my face in it and devour some wisdom. I want to seek understanding like silver and search for hidden treasures. I am crying out for discernment.
Had my comfort zone become too comfortable? Is there something else that is needed? Was I keeping the place from becoming what God wants it to be? Where do I go from here?
I will continue to seek discernment and understanding. Will you pray with me?