If I had to choose one age I still see myself at it would be 40. So much happened in that year. I had to learn to live life differently that year. I had to learn to lean heavily into my Creator because He took the vessel that ushered me into this world away from me. I couldn’t lean on her anymore. That year showed me some weaknesses and some strengths about myself. I have aged since that year. There are still days I desperately want my mama. But in those times, I remember that One who will never leave…